Kreative Tendencies

Friday, November 04, 2011

So here we go again

After an inevitable hiatus I return to the blogging world albeit a little less triumphantly than deserved. I just got the net at my new place so I should be able to keep the blog going a little more regularly now.

I quite like it here, its good to be able to smoke indoors, have freedom and independence and also make my own way. If I can save $400 I will probably sign up to 2-3 online study units, probably early next year though. It depends though, as I may be undergoing an adventure - traveling from Melbourne to Darwin - on foot! We'll see though, I need to get fitter first. In any case I still need to save the $400 - it will go towards a good quality back-pack and a tent if nothing else.

This afternoon I have to return home for an over-night stay. I get bored there pretty quickly so I will probably leave mid to late afternoon. That's really all for now, but hopefully not such a huge gap until the next post.

:: posted by Kaga, 11/04/2011 12:10:00 pm | link | 0 comments |

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Todays Top 250 Songs

My Current Top 225 Songs
May 12th 2011

Note: These songs are not in any particular order and are designed to be played in this playlist in shuffle mode. Some Artists may be repeated, but songs will not. It's highly likely I have missed quite a few of my favorites, these are just ones that came into my mood at this time.

  1. Hunters 'N Collectors: Holy Grail
  2. Billy Joel: Captain Jack
  3. Price Tag: Jessie J
  4. Submersed: You Run
  5. Three Days Grace: Last To Know
  6. Pink: Who Knew
  7. Evanescence: My Immortal
  8. Blue October: Inner Glow
  9. Kenny Loggins: Footloose
  10. Jeniffer Rush: The Power of Love
  11. Andrea Bocelli: Conte Patiro (Time To Say Goodbye)
  12. Immediate Music: Serenata Immortale
  13. Katy Perry: Firework
  14. Avril Lavigne: Let Go
  15. Linkin Park: Numb
  16. Within Temptation: What Have You Done
  17. Far East Movement: Like a G6
  18. Various: Hallelujah
  19. Justin Beiber: Never Say Never
  20. Killswitch Engage: Holy Diver
  21. Dido: White Flag
  22. Korn: Clown
  23. Insane Clown Posse: Wind Me Up
  24. Gogol Bordello: Immigraniada
  25. John Denver: You Fill Up My Senses
  26. Divinyl's: Pleasure and Pain
  27. Nine Inch Nails: Perfect Drug
  28. Placebo: Pure Morning
  29. Adam Lambert: Whataya want from me
  30. 30 Seconds to Mars: The Kill
  31. The Script: For the First Time
  32. Kill Hannah: Lips Like Morphine
  33. Atreyu: Ex's and Oh's
  34. K.D Lang: Constant Craving
  35. Cyndi Lauper: Time After Time
  36. Otis Redding: Sittin' on the Dock of the Bay
  37. Birds of Tokyo: Wild At Heart
  38. Alestorm: Wench's and Mead
  39. Lou Reed: Perfect Day
  40. Live: Run to the Water
  41. Marilyn Manson: I Don't Like the Drugs but the Drugs Like Me
  42. Bruno Mars: Grenade
  43. Guy Sebastion: Who's that Girl
  44. Afrojack: Take Over Control
  45. Pussycat Dolls: Dontcha
  46. Alanis Morrisette: You Oughta Know
  47. Boondox: Seven
  48. Tupac and Elton John: Ghetto Gospel
  49. My Chemical Romance: SING
  50. Chris Brown: Beautiful People
  51. Pearl Jam: Amongst the Waves
  52. Johnny Cash: Hurt
  53. Ke$ha: Tik Tok
  54. Bee Gees: I started a Joke
  55. Small Faces: Lazy Sunday
  56. U2: Kite
  57. System of a Down: Lonely Day
  58. Silverchair: Emotion Sickness
  59. Glee: I want to hold your hand
  60. Wiz Khalifa: Black and Yellow
  61. Robbie Williams and Kylie Minogue: Kids
  62. Charlie Landsborough: What Color is the Wind
  63. Joe Nichols: The Impossible
  64. Taylor Swift: Fairytale
  65. Alexis Jordan: My Happiness
  66. Various: We are the World for Haiti
  67. B.O.B: Magic
  68. Glee: To Serve With Love
  69. Young Jeezy - My President is Black
  70. David Guetta - Memories
  71. Lily Allen: Not Fair
  72. Enrique Iglesias: Hero
  73. The Rolling Stones: Paint it Black
  74. Usher: OMG
  75. Matchbox 20: Unwell
  76. Dan Hill: Sometimes when we touch
  77. Cat Stevens: Father and son
  78. The Hollies: He Ain't Heavy, He's my Brother
  79. Gerry and the Pacemakers - You'll Never Walk Alone
  80. Kansas: Carry on my Wayward Son
  81. Black Eyed Peas: Meet me Halfway
  82. John Lennon: Imagine
  83. Bob Marley: Buffalo Soldier
  84. Bob Dylan: Blowin in the wind
  85. Train: If It's Love
  86. Nickleback: If Today Was Your Last Day
  87. Nickleback: This Afternoon
  88. Creedence Clearwater Revival: Fortunate Son
  89. Elton John: Your Song
  90. Elton John**: I Guess That's Why They Call it the Blues
  91. Creed: Weathered
  92. Submersed: Hollow
  93. Justin Beiber: Baby
  94. Owl City: Fireflies
  95. Adam Lambert**: If I had You
  96. Tool: Sober
  97. Prodigy: Smack my Bitch Up
  98. Bette Midler: Wind Beneath My Wings
  99. Europe: The Final Countdown
  100. Rammstein: Du Hast
  101. Drowning Pool: Tear Away
  102. Incubus: I wish You Were Here
  103. Disturbed: Prayer
  104. Incubus: Drive
  105. Three Days Grace: Never Too Late
  106. Marilyn Manson: Coma White
  107. Marilyn Manson: Tourniquet
  108. Live: Dolphins Cry
  109. Live: Heaven
  110. Creed: Higher
  111. Chris Brown: Yeah 3X
  112. Infect: For the Soldiaz
  113. Evanesencne: Lithium
  114. Ed Kowalcyk: Grace
  115. At The Drive In: One Armed Scissor
  116. DJ Earworm: United States of Pop
  117. DJ Clay and Hatchet Family: Kept Grindin'
  118. Nirvana: Come as you are
  119. Nirvana: Heart Shaped Box
  120. Red Hot Chili Peppers: Scar Tissue
  121. Scatman John: Scatman
  122. Lipps Inc: Funky Town
  123. Mike Posner: Cooler Than Me
  124. BOB: Aeroplanes
  125. Akon: Smack That
  126. POD: Set it off
  127. Meatloaf: I Would do Anything for Love
  128. Rage Against the Machine: Guerrilla Radio
  129. Natalie Imbruliga: Torn
  130. Alanis Morrisette: Hand in my Pocket
  131. Spice Girls: Wannabe
  132. Ronan Keating: When You Say Nothing At All
  133. Robbie Williams: Angels
  134. Robbie Williams: Better Man
  135. Backstreet Boys: Everybody
  136. Avril Lavigne: Hot
  137. Avril Lavigne: Skater Boi
  138. Kisschasey: Spray on Pants
  139. Powerderfinger: My Happiness
  140. Jessie Mccartney: Beautiful soul
  141. Foo Fighters: Everlong
  142. Foo Fighters: Best of You
  143. Foo Fighters: Times Like These (accoustic)
  144. Hoobastank: The Reason
  145. Static-X: The Only
  146. Slipknot: Vermillion Part 2
  147. Stone Sour: 30-30-150
  148. Stone Sour: Through Glass
  149. Stone Sour: Bother
  150. Michael Jackson: Human Nature
  151. Elvis Presley: Blue Suede Shoes
  152. Elvis Presley: Suspicious Minds
  153. Elvis Presley: Devil In Disguise
  154. Lynn Anderson - Rose Garden
  155. TLC: Waterfalls
  156. Oasis: Wonderwall
  157. Shihad: Pacifier
  158. Shihad: Comfort Me
  159. Silverchair: Tomorrow
  160. Silverchair: Ana's Song
  161. Nine Inch Nails: Everyday is Exactly the Same
  162. LMFAO: Anthem
  163. Kanye West: Gold Digger
  164. Outkast: Hey Ya
  165. Outkast: I'm sorry miss jackson
  166. Afroman: Because I got high
  167. Kelly Clarkson: Because of You
  168. Fergie: Big Girls Don't Cry
  169. Theme: Benny Hill Theme
  170. Theme: Great Mighty Poo Song
  171. Theme: Victoria Bitter
  172. Eric Cartman: Poker Face
  173. Leona Lewis: Bleeding Love
  174. Alestorm: Keelhauled
  175. Bad Manners: Lip up Fatty
  176. Red Hot Chili Peppers: Dani California
  177. Red Hot Chili Peppers: Can't Stop
  178. 28 Days: Rip it up
  179. 36 Crazyfists: At the end of August
  180. Jerk: I Hate People Like That
  181. Lady Gaga: Alejandro
  182. Lady Gaga: Telephone
  183. Beyonce: If I was a boy
  184. Beyonce: Halo
  185. Katy Perry: E.T
  186. Katy Perry: E.T Ft. Kanye West
  187. Rihanna: S&M
  188. Rihanna: Shut up and drive
  189. Rihanna: Disturbia
  190. Rihanna: Te Amo
  191. Cee-Lo Green: Fuck You
  192. J-Lo: On the Floor
  193. Bruno Mars: Just The Way You Are
  194. Pink: Raise Your Glass
  195. 30 Seconds to Mars: Closer to the Edge
  196. Usher: DJ got us falling in love again
  197. Ke$ha: Your love is my drug
  198. Jessie J: Do it Like a Dude
  199. Diddy Dirty Money: I'm coming home
  200. Good Charlotte: Like It's Her Birthday
  201. Nicole Scherzinger: Don't Hold Your Breath
  202. Foo Fighters: Rope
  203. Jessica Maulboy: What Happened to us
  204. Rick Springsteen: Jesse's Girl
  205. Glee: No Air
  206. Glee: Teenage Dream
  207. Glee: Hey Soul Sister
  208. Korn: Make Me Bad
  209. Korn: Got the life
  210. Adema: Giving In
  211. Adema: Immortal
  212. Adema: Let Go
  213. Axe Murder Boys: Still Alive
  214. Twiztid: We Don't Die
  215. Twiztid: Afraid of Me
  216. Insane Clown Posse: Tilt-a-whirl
  217. 3 Days Grace: Break
  218. 3 Days Grace: Riot
  219. Linkin Park: In The End
  220. Linkin Park: Somewhere I belong
  221. Billy Joel: Piano Man
  222. Cold Play: Clocks (Remix)
  223. Nickelback: Believe it or not
  224. Nickelback: Should've Listened
  225. Nickelback: Never Gonna Be Alone

*(Alanis Morissete Cover)

You can get the full play list here.

Labels: , , , , , , , ,

:: posted by Kaga, 5/12/2011 09:13:00 am | link | 0 comments |

My Return

I got officially discharged from the psych ward Monday night. It took quite a long time for the Crisis Aid Treatment (CAT) Team to arrive, and I was fully expecting to be there another day. I'm glad I was able to go home though, as I would have had to share a room with 3 others because my old solo room had been allocated to someone else. (Presumably because I was originally being discharged, or at least going on leave that day).

Being at the ward opened my eyes to a world of career possibilities and I've decided it might be worthwhile pursuing a career in Nursing. That course doesn't start until next February though so I will need something to do in the mean time. There is a course in Elderly Care with the option of adding Home and Community Care which goes for 6 months and looks like it would fit in perfectly. I just hope my mental illness will not be a hindrance.

Looking back, to some extent I actually enjoyed being in the ward and the communal living environment - This made me realize I'd like to eventually work in Mental Health. This time however, career wise, I'm going to fight avoidance, as well as see a Career Counselor.

Yesterday, to my surprise, my highly supportive mother bought me a smoking pipe. I didn't realize rolling tobacco was different so I tried using it but it was a little troublesome. It worked but I think pipe tobacco might be grainier - I'm not really sure.

Just after 11 I went to my GP for a follow up, I was given a script for more 10mg abilify with 1 repeat, and was asked to book a long consultation tomorrow so we could draw up a mental health development plan, or whatever it's called.

I then went to my first Anxiety Recovery Centre (ARC) meeting. Everyone was quite nice, and the partial 'odd ball' element of it all was quite interesting. Unfortunately they only meet once per month so I'd like to potentially join at least one other support group.

After the meeting as a reward for the courage to attend, as well as for an early birthday present for myself I bought a $10 cigar. I haven't tried it yet, but I'm quite looking forward to the experience. I originally asked the guy at the counter if they had legal herbal smoke but he was adamant they had nothing else - I think he thought I wanted weed.

I took extra pills to ensure a goodnight sleep. I took 1x10mg abilify 3x25mg phernegan and 1x100mg seroquel about 90 minutes before sleep. Then just before I went to bed I had a very minor psychotic binge where I took 1 more abilify, 3 more phernegan and 2 more seroquel. On top of this I took 2x5mg Diazepam - with this full cocktail, combined with the fact I'd already taken an extra abilify earlier on in the day this was not the smartest of ideas. Again though I view it as a very minor psychosis where in the back of my mind I was slightly hoping to enter a coma.

Instead I woke up just after 7am, feeling quite fresh! I'm quite calm at the moment, although there is a sense of boredom looming - I really need to get a job, even a voluntary one. I don't want to get so bored so as to renew wow.

Today at mid-day I have a follow up appointment with my GP as mentioned earlier. At some point I also need to do a little bit of unpacking. I have a phone interview with Centrelink at 1, hopefully the 2 appointments to clash.

Right now I'm going to create a current top 25 fave songs with the restriction of one song per artist. I will post the list next.


:: posted by Kaga, 5/12/2011 08:10:00 am | link | 0 comments |

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


I suppose I should sum up the events till now since I didn't really cover them much. Sunday went fairly well and was interesting enough for a day out, Wiremue got quite plastered, which surprised me considering we'd had comparable amounts of alcohol and I was only mildly 'drunk' - anyway, it was a good enough day overall.

I came home Monday and pretty much just played wow, then today I did more of the same, until maintenance came, which was early because of the new 4.0.1 patch. During the down time I read up on some physics which were interesting but very basic.

I realized I'm still struggling with the same things I was a good five years ago, and I don't know how to reconcile them. I'm exploring options but it's really hard to know whats good and whats novelty. I just don't know.

More soon.
:: posted by Kaga, 10/12/2010 10:02:00 pm | link | 0 comments |

Monday, October 11, 2010


I'm loving spring so much this year. Usually it flys by, like any other season and I don't really notice, but something about these Sunny days lately have really made me appreciate the beauty of the natural world. I don't know if it's because I'm healthier or because I'm just spending more time outdoors (perhaps a combination of both) but either way I'm really loving it.

I've been having a lot of chaotic thoughts lately about the future, well, my future that is, and I'm not sure what to do. I could return to Uni, if they let me, early next year but I don't know if thats what I really want to do, I mean... I left for a reason. I could study something different instead, but I don't trust myself to devote enough time to online study especially with Cataclysm just around the corner. I could go to the force like I've more or less been planning to, assuming I get let in, but there is a lot of fear surrounding that, and I just don't know.

I guess the good part is, at this exact point in time I don't need to know. So I'll just relax and enjoy the beautiful spring day that is.

More soon.
:: posted by Kaga, 10/11/2010 02:07:00 pm | link | 0 comments |

Sunday, October 10, 2010


I ended up going to Wiremue's Thursday night. He was annoyed at work and downed a few beers before I had the chance to even sniff one! Oh well, that's Wiremue for you. Friday was Gym as was this morning. Tomorrow is the BBQ which I'm quite looking forward to after another (albeit quick) gym session.

More soon.
:: posted by Kaga, 10/10/2010 12:12:00 am | link | 0 comments |

Thursday, October 07, 2010

This Afternoon

Lookin' like another Bob Marley day
Hittin' from the bong like a diesel train
And I'm down with hangin' out this afternoon

We've got weeds in the backyard 4 feet tall
Cheech and Chong prob'ly woulda' smoked 'em all
So I'm out on the couch this afternoon

Beer bottles layin' on the kitchen floor
If we take 'em all back we can buy some more
So I doubt we'll go without this afternoon

You better hang on if you're taggin' along
Cause we'll be doin this 'till 6 in the mornin'
Nothin' wrong with goin' all night long
Tough to put the brakes on,
Doesn't matter when you'd rather

Get up, and go out
Me and all my friends
We drink up, We fall down
And then we do it all again
Just sittin around, hangin out this afternoon

Landlord said I should buy a tent
But he can kiss my ass cause I payed the rent
So I doubt he'll kick me out this afternoon

Down on the corner in a seedy bar
Juke box crankin' out the CCR
Had a few to Suzy Q this afternoon

Don't wanna wristwatch or an alarm clock
To see what time it is
From the moment I wake up
I just love being with my friends
We barely get by, but have the best times
And hope it never ends
We drink all day till we fall down
So we can do it all again

It's not the human walk
It's the human race
If you aint livin on the edge
You're takin' too much space
So I doubt I'll figure out
Just what to do
'Bout to kick it around
Hangin out this afternoon

Get up, and go out
Me and all my friends
We drink up, we fall down
And then we do it all again

Just kickin' around, hangin out this afternoon
Sittin around hangin out this afternoon
:: posted by Kaga, 10/07/2010 04:35:00 pm | link | 0 comments |

The Thursday That Is

After pondering my futures options yesterday I felt a little overwhelmed. I enquired about a part time position in the military today and there's an info session on Tuesday about that so I might go, I'm not 100% sure yet. I also contacted the local station and as of now they are getting back to me regarding my enquiry, so we will see how long that takes.

I haven't done much today so far, I'm thinking of talking to Wiremue about arranging something for tonight, I'm extrememly tempted to have a few cold ones but at the same time it might be a wise idea to save myself, and the money, for Sunday.

In WoW I'm in a Druid mood today, so about to do some PvP.

More soon.
:: posted by Kaga, 10/07/2010 12:27:00 pm | link | 0 comments |

End of the Day

Today bought about some interesting developments. I played WoW for a while, getting my Hunter mining and then pvping whilst levelling the profession. I then went to gym and met an old school friend I hadn't seen in a long time. Then it was home for more WoW, mostly PvP.

I've been pondering the Applied Science program but I'm not sure. I kind of want to do it, but I kind of don't so we'll see.

More Soon.
:: posted by Kaga, 10/07/2010 01:26:00 am | link | 0 comments |

Wednesday, October 06, 2010


Just woke up at around 10am. Not too bad considering day light savings just kicked in so it's more like 9 and I didn't sleep till around 3 anyway, so good - no oversleep for once. Other than gym this afternoon I don't plan on doing all that much today, probably end up just playing WoW, but you never know.

In the short term I'm looking forward to the weekend, and in the longer term 4.0.1 and Cata release.

More soon
:: posted by Kaga, 10/06/2010 10:18:00 am | link | 0 comments |

The Good Times

It's funny. When I first started reading these blogs I was mostly in shock that 4-5 years had actually gone since writing them. It's a fair chunk of my life that's gone from then until now. The strangest thing is not a whole lot seems to have happened. This made me feel quite sad, as I seem to be more or less in the same place as I was 5 years ago and that feels very weird.

Not everything here brings me down though, there are of course good times, and some of the posts on this and my other blogs remind me of this.

I have a great deal to ponder, and a great deal more to read.

More soon.
:: posted by Kaga, 10/06/2010 02:31:00 am | link | 0 comments |


Over 4 years have past since I last updated this particular blog. I have had several other blogs from time to time, but this seemed the most appropriate to resume posting in. I won't say all that much right now, as it's already quite late, I'm tired and I still have a lot of posts I want to read through.

I just wanted to get something down that wasn't 4 years old and that would hopefully encourage me to continue with tomorrow.

Today I took "Bob" home as he had been visting. I was playing WoW until maintenance then played some of Cata beta. In the mean time something prompted me to visit and old blog which eventually led me here and to this post.

More soon...
:: posted by Kaga, 10/06/2010 02:12:00 am | link | 0 comments |